Field of Fairys

Reoccurring

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Mon, 17 Sep 2007 03:29:59 GMT

This reoccurring thought in my minds eye when ever looking to further my family only comes to a halt when the images flash through my head like an old fashion film reel of events that took place some 2 years ago. Starting in a bathroom with women like sisters, to a dreadful car ride, leading to that cold place only to see the screen, to a bed then leading back to that terrible bathroom. This thought provokes such intense feelings to rush through me, feelings of sadness and hurt, the labored....labored.....labored...breathing, eyes burning with fury and over flowing with tear drops of lava. The feeling of being ripped..apart from something soo close to you, within you. Then the collapse, into no one but your own arms. No comfort in this reoccurring thought...Of what could have been, to what is now and now to what will become...This is my past, present and my future.

I fear that day i lost myself along with another, everything good about me was taken and flushed down the toilet...literally however unfortunate....

One day i hope to be right again...

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Tue, 28 Feb 2006 05:36:54 GMT

Sometimes it takes losing everything to get exactly what you want.

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Sat, 25 Feb 2006 01:29:17 GMT

In My Daughters Eyes

In my daughters eyes, I am a hero.
I am strong and wise and i know no fear.
But the truth is plain to she,
she was sent here to rescue me.
I see who i want to be,
In my Daughters eyes.

In my daughters eyes-everyone is equal.
Darkness turns to light and the world is at peace.
This miracle God gave to me gives me strength when i am weak.
I see reason to believe in my Daughters eyes.

When she wraps her hand around my fingers,
oh it puts a smile in my heart.
Everything becomes a little clearer
and i know what life is all about.
Its about hanging on when your heart has
had enough-its giving more when you feel like giving up.
Ive seen the light-its in my daughters eyes.
The future-a reflection of who i am and what will be.

Though she'll grow and someday leave,
maybe start a family,
when ive gone i hope she'll see how happy she made me
And ill be there -----
In my Daughters eyes.

Wow its a definate water works show over here haha. My mom gave that to me a very long time ago then gave it to me again when i was preggo with Zoey and right now im having a tough time with things so i pulled it out, of all things something to make me cry more haha but thats ok thats how i roll!

Ode to you

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Wed, 22 Feb 2006 04:36:54 GMT

I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready

Come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you
Always
Kiss you, taste you all night
Always

And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights, I hate them
Lets start this again for real

So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready

Come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
(Come on let me hold you) Touch you, feel you
Always
Kiss you, taste you all night
Always

I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying

Come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you
Always
Kiss you, taste you all night
Always
(Come on let me hold you) Touch you, feel you
Always
Kiss you, taste you all night
Always

Always..

Always..

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Mon, 30 Jan 2006 05:35:20 GMT

Ok so yea i was at Jays last night and we were on the computer and guess what...I GOT MY LICENSE!!! Holy mother Miss Stefanie Stewart got her license. Only catch is..i have to go to the DMV and get the picture taken..then make an appointment to take the actual drivers test. Im estatic!! Im looking into getting a Jetta..not sure how i can pay for it on top of rent and everything else but i will figure it out it will just take major budgeting. hehe i cant wait to learn how to drive stick thats gonna be awesome in Lindsays Lancer *happy dance*

In other news everything is going great zoeys 18 months jesus christ, the girl speaks clear as a bell and almost full sentences..my lil genious! Work is also still great, lots of customers = $$$$ for me! Jay and i are wonderfull been together 6 months awww. Going on vacation soon to orlando with jay brian and gio...shall be a blast and for my 21st b-day Jays taking me to Vegas and a few months before that we are going to all try and go on a cruise.

Anyhow got some things to look up with the internet is still kicken so till next time dudes take care

Stefanie

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Thu, 05 Jan 2006 04:45:53 GMT

Me- "Ok mama time to go night night its getting late"
Zoey- *turnes head and smiles politely* Fuck you.

Now isnt that just wonderful! Damn near died when i heard that one, total shocker. Lol oh man crazy lil girl..well crazy lil baby.
Anyway this holiday really flew by, did awesome at work and have been the last few weeks which definitely makes life easier, got to love it. Jay and I are still together it will be 6 months on the 13th, go us! Had a rediculous fight tonight about dinner..wish he would have at least come over tho bc i do miss him i didnt see him for a week then saw him monday night and havent seen him yet..needless to say i really wanna see him. *sigh*
On a lighter note i found the best ring tone EVER!! Its called the farting symphony! hahahahahhahah if you know me you can totally understand why i would love this ring tone, hahahah its the shit. Its the best today was the first day i had that on at work and it rang in my pocket, i swear to you i though it was me..thought i got so relaxed it slipped out...yea totally had a great laugh with my customers, hehe only me i swear.

Ok so now its friggin 11:43 and i wanted to take a nice hot bath with this stuff i got and relax but by the time i would get out of the shower it would be like 2 and i would have to get back in at 9 so its a bit pointless so there went another uneventful night alone..

Stefanie

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Sat, 03 Dec 2005 03:41:06 GMT

Weeee yaaaay im so excited about the bake sale tomorrow i cant wait..i hope i get to see some people i havent seen in a long time, i know alot of my clients from the shop are actually going but none of the actual people i wanted to see and chill with for a while. Its gonna be great fun tho me Jay Brian and Gio..i wonder if gregory is going...lol if he did we would see alot of his crack head friends haha. Anyway im so dead from today i worked my lil asshole off scrubing feets and drilling nails not to mention having to do it in a rush bc this other chick threw off all my appointments bc she had my customer for 15 mins longer then she should have! Ugh!In this business you gain a whole new respect for time i swear to god, a while back a normal persons 2 hours would seen like quite a while..for me its like 20 mins no lie, guess i cant complain to much bc i made mad money today. *sigh* on another note im broke as fuck and it sucks major weiner, all the money i make goes right to bills i cant even enjoy it.

Anyway im tired im gonna go and watch some tv...possibly str8in my hair but prolly not haha. peace out bitches

<3 stefanie ann

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Sat, 19 Nov 2005 04:03:32 GMT

What a drab day, work was somewhat slow compared to yesterday..only difference was i made more tips then money on the book and vice versa today. Today was only slow bc everyone was like hours apart and it was raining and just boring. I thought my night would make up for the day but i suppose it just added to it which really sucks bc i looked foward to it like i do every night..bickering just blows serious asshole, especially when we do it. *heavy sigh* i dont know..i guess i was gonna say alot but now i dont have quite the urge to do so...might as well just end the day now and go to bed in hopes of a better day tomorrow. Goodnight everyone.

Stef

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Sun, 13 Nov 2005 03:01:01 GMT

Last night was fun, had a ladys night out with the girls at work. We all got ready and met up at Aly's apt then headed over to Allstars bar, got in even tho im underage thanks to Christalle's brother. Got a titty bit tipsy had alot of laughs then got called home bc the baby woke up, but it actually worked out good bc we wanted to be home by at least 1:30 for work today at 9. Hhaha putting the baby down was not such an easy task due to the spinning feeling mixed with rocking in a rocking chair...it was very uncool especially the getting up from the chair and stumbleing to the crib! Oh well tho its not something i do on a norm it was just nice to get out for a little while and chill. Anyway, Jays upset with me for going out i guess and not inviting him but it was a ladys night out and he would have felt out of place with 7 other girls, it wasnt like we were going out to pick up guys bc all but maybe 2 or 3 are with someone, i guess he just dosent really trust me yet i havent given him reason not to. But at any rate its better to be pissed off then pissed on so im gonna go now and keep on studying for that damn permit, i finally got the drug and alcohol certificate, ive been waiting for it since september called and they said it was shiped, never got it, so i got it thru my email instead. Now im working on the permit and soon ill be fyling around town...hahah what after 5 years of being able to have it haha oh well better late then never!

<3 stefanie

Ps. im going to get a black jetta

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Fri, 04 Nov 2005 04:46:44 GMT

*GASPS FOR DEEP BREATH* POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy mother of god 10 flippin days without power, im suprised im still alive as well as my family bc i was on the verge of comitting a mass murder!!! Hhaha oh man hot shower, no more twisted nipples due to freezing water, computer, ICE cold drinks, fan, visiablity walking to and sitting on the toilet instead of falling in bc asshole guys dont put the lid down haha, ahhh just good ole' power to make life easier again!

Anyhow recap on things, hurricane was awesome was outside the whole time on the patio, freezed my boobies off, loved it, hated it, had alot of days off work, went to work last saturday, had a great Halloween took the baby lady bug who was escourted by a graveyard faerie(me) and a death faerie(lin) and a playboy bunny(allie) and good ole Jay to the mall which had no candy..fuckers, got new DC's and got brian new adidas and the baby basically a new wardrobe and lets see...just been working my ass off and paying bills, the end!

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Wed, 12 Oct 2005 04:23:00 GMT

--Redneck--
1] Do you believe the south will rise again? I think you should ask if i care first
2] Do you drive a four-wheel drive automobile? I dont have a car to being with
3] Do you live in a mobile home? Nope.
4] Is your car still primer gray? Don't even have one.
5] Do you like country music? Some is ok
6] Do you have a broken car in your back yard? No.
7] Do you own a cowboy hat? haha no
8] Do you live on more then 2 acres? It would be nice but no
9] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home? I would have had 4 if i bought that tiny turtle today
Total YES: -0

--Goth--
1] Do you wear black eyeliner? Always
2] Is most of your clothing dark? Yes, some what
3] Do you think about death often? only when things get to over whelming but i would never wish it
4] Do you want to die? No.
5] Are you a social outcast? not to much
6] Are you pale? For an italian chick im pretty damn white
7] Do you like Hot Topic? Its kool havent been there in a while
8] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies? Yea they are insane
9] Are you mean? everyones mean to a fault
Total YES: 5

--Skater Punk--
1] Can you skateboard? i cant do tricks but i can ride it
2] Do you wear Vans? No
3] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends? ahah yea
4] Have you gotten in trouble with the cops? No
5] Do you watch the x-games? No
6] Do you have any piercings? yes
7] Do you like/wear mohawks? i like them
8] Do you wear Band t-shirts? Not anymore
9] Have you called someone a poser? Yeah
Total YES: 4

--Prep--
1] Do you say the word "like" a lot? Yeah.
2] Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch? No.
3] Do you pop the collar? Hahaha yea its awesome
4] Do the people in Hot topic scare you? No way
5] Is the only nerd u like Seth Cohen? who?
6] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH? I dont go out of my way to but sometimes the girls at work have it on
7] Do you like pop music? I like everything
8] Do you want/have a little dog? No
Total YES: 4
--Hippie--
1] Is your hair long? yes
2] Do you own a tye-dye shirt? skrew that!
3] Do you want peace? Im indifferent
4] Do you want to save the animals? ill save my animals
5] Do you think war is unneccesary? No.
6] Is love essential in your life? Yeah.
7] Have you smoked pot? Are you joking?
8] Do you like classic rock and trippy music? i said i liked everything
Total YES: 4

--Gangsta--
1] Do you act ghetto? bc its fun
2] Do you wear do-rags? only when im raggin
3] Do you like hip-hop? i like everything
4] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world? never analized his music to say so
5] Do you believe he's alive? No.
6] Do you like afros? No
7] Have you ever said "fo shizzle"? In a joking manner
8] Do you like to dance? in front of people no, by myself...i rock out
9] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit? No.
Total YES: 3

--Emo--
1] Do you cry often? when necessary
2] Do you wear hoodies? Yeah.
3] Do you like soft music? Yeah.
4] Do people not understand you? no one truly understands someone
5] Do you write your own songs? no
6] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark? all of the above
7] Do you cut your own hair? I have
8] Are you lonely? as lonely as someone could get for sitting in a dark room with there child sleeping
9] Is Ohio for lovers? no its for crazy bitches
Total : 5

--Surfer--
1] Do you surf? No.
2] Do you wear flip flops year-round? no
3] Is your hair shaggy? No.
4] Do you wake up before 6 every morning? lemme hear a huge "fuck that!" FUCK THAT
5] Do you own any pairs of shorts? Yes.
6] Are you tan? No
8] Do you want to be at the beach right now? not to surf just to look at the moon and water
9] Do you hate tourists? snow birds are the worst
Total YES: 3

--Geek--
1] Do you wear glasses? Supposta but dont
2] Do you get good grades? does your boss telling you your doing good count?
3] Do you use an inhaler? Yea its called a cigarette
4] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? No
5] Does your mom pick out your clothes? hahaha
5] Are you on the computer often? when i get time
6] Do you ever get picked on? Not anymore
7] Do you look forward to go to school? im getting the feeling, no..
8] Are you shy around the opposite sex? no, sometimes i just dont talk bc im listening..something alot of people lack.
Total YES: 1?

That took me forever bc i have to type so damn slow and quiet other wise my boo boo with wake up, hehehe!

ps i got OVERALLS today!!! woohoo ive missed them. I want to fit into my old ones tho...damn wide hips! ok going to use my inhaler hahahah bye.

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Wed, 24 Aug 2005 05:07:39 GMT

I said it i said it i said it i said it!!!!!!!!!!!! I just couldnt take it anymore, I LOVE YOU Jacob Bell!!!!!!!!!!! Ahhhhh *sigh of relief*

August 24th
12:45am

And thats all she wrote.

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Wed, 24 Aug 2005 02:01:33 GMT

Yea so yesterday was great, chilled around the house and did some packing and hung out with Zoey and played, Jay came over on his lunch break for a couple which was really nice bc i wanted to see him but didnt think he was going to come..but he did! Basically chilled after that and packed my shit to go down to Nanny's, i spent the night there. He got off work then came here, chilled some more and then headed down to Nanny's, my percious fell asleep on the way and stayed asleep so Jay and i went to dinner at Denny's...omg sooooo good and sooo full. Left there and hung out with Lin for a little while then went in the pool for a nice romantic almost but not quite, midnight dip.

This morning Lin and I went to the mall and i got a few outfits ans some other things for my trip this weekend which im counting down till, its going to be great, Saturday i go to work and leave at 5 go to Nanny's shower and then go to the Dolphins game with Jay his father his sister and a crowd of there friends, after the game im going up to Jays apartment then Sunday morning we are heading out for Orlando to have a wonderful weekend. I cant wait!!!

Anyway Jays on his way here so im off like a prom dress!

Stefanie Ann

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Thu, 18 Aug 2005 05:03:20 GMT

Ok so ive been stressin about money lately, like im going on vacation and i need a few things to go away with, new bathing suit some shorts and tank tops bc its hot as a mother outside, among other things. So i get home a little bit ago from being with <3Jay<3 and i open my mail and its my credit card bill. I read it and desypher how much im going to pay bc im straped for cash, and i keep reading and it says "Total Credit Line: 700. Holy mother of god, it went from 200 to 700!!! But get this, the whole time since i found out im going away ive been stressin about money and how im going to afford getting these things to go, TOTALLY FORGETTING ABOUT MY CREDIT CARD!!! Hhaha then finding out i got a higher credit line, thats awesome. I cant go to crazy tho but shiiiit im gonna get what i want and not worry about it for now. Anyway i guess thats all i wanted to say so till another time, goodnight!

Stefanie Ann

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Mon, 15 Aug 2005 20:05:04 GMT

Holy mudda-sucka i fit into a size 4!!!!!!!!!! It looks AWESOME when im standing but when i sit its a little buldgy, but i tuck it in haha! So far its been a good birthday, hung out with my boo boo then my mom took her down to Boca to go int he pool bc she didnt wanna sit around here, i didnt go tho bc im going to dinner with *Jay* then maybe meeting up with them later, who knows.

So yea im gonna go now and listen to music and fold some clothes. Bye!

Stefanie Ann

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Mon, 15 Aug 2005 03:28:57 GMT

Theres so many ways to say this
so many perfect opportunities
yet everytime one arises i come crashing down
I feel it deep inside and want it known world wide
the time dosent feels right
so ill keep it air tight...

Well today was my little birthday party with the family we all just chilled and went in the pool and ate dinner...mmm spanish meatballs. I got a nice loot of cards and a small fortune haha, i also got a nice get away from Jay, we are going to Orlando in 2 weeks for the weekend, just basically chillin and going to Island Of Adventure and im sure a whole lot of other things hes got planned. Anyhow, I definietly got some color today, i feel a little crispy but im not burned at all just got my usual sun kissed cheecks and horribal tan line haha. Anyway tomorrow is my actual birthday for those of you who dont know, im not really doing anything but chillin with Zoey for the day and im pretty sure going back to nannys for dinner...i would rather go out to dinner but it dosent look like that will happen. *sigh* Im tired as hell so i guess im going to go to bed now, Goodnight everyone!

<3 Stefanie Ann

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Fri, 05 Aug 2005 03:32:29 GMT

WOW so 11 days till my birthday...ill be 20, no longer a teenager yet a woman. They say these are the best years of your life and for the most part they are except for a few bumps in the road, then again what would life be if there were no curve balls thrown?

Life as we speak is great, met someone new who is absolutly amazing to me. I met him thru my aunt and uncle a while ago, he had come to my nannys and poppys a few times and hung out but he had a gf then and i was with zach so we never really talked. Then he came over for Lala's b-day on the 7th of July and we all hung out for a few nights and started talking and i havent been without him since. Im the happiest ive been in i cant tell you how long, like actually happy. He accepts me for me, he loves my daughter which just blows my mind bc i thought i would be alone forever, but i wouldnt have cared bc i have her but just that he dosent care is...i dont even know the word. So yea hes just overall an amazing guy and i hope things stay this way for as long as possible :D Aside from him things are also great, Zoey is getting so big i cant believe it, my little princess, walking, saying little things, having a mini mind of her own and just being beautiful and healthy lol well aside from having the shits bc her teeth are comming in but for the most part. Work is good, making my own money now i just need to work on getting my license which im doing bc i really need to. The family is also good for the most part, dont really wanna get into that right now so we will just say they are good and leave it at that.

So what else? I suppose nothing, so im gonna go blow my ear drums out and talk to Jay when he gets online so till the next time, take care all and hope all is well. Goodnight to all and to all a good night!!

<3 Stefanie Ann

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Wed, 20 Jul 2005 02:58:41 GMT

Yep so im just sittin here with Lin and basically doing nothing but listenin to some music and bullshittin talkin on the phone as well. Im kinda bored tonight but thats ok i am going to have a busy weekend being its Lindsays b-day and all woohoo 21! Today was actually Zach's bday which is kool for him. So um i dont know what else i wanna say so i guess ill stop while im ahead.

Stefanie Ann

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Fri, 15 Jul 2005 03:53:22 GMT

Ever want to just tell a select few something and couldnt?! Yea well this is me, theres so much i wanna say and so many words to put it into but when you go to say it its either you have that dumb found look on your face and totally change your train of thought into a different gear or just blurt it out and it comes out so wrong and fucked up you just wish you opt for the shifting gear face.

Anyhow life's changed drastically for me...and for the better i must say. Zoey is 1 now and she gets more beautiful every day and more curls everyday ahah shes just overall an amazing child.

Im still working at the same nail place and loving it but does have its days, i have mad clients which is awesome and they are actually pretty kool themselves..definitely walks of all kinds though.

The family is doing good all in good health thank god bc we have had a lot of bumps in the road but we are manageing fairly well.

Other then that im going to bed haha im tired and dont really know what else to say i guess...

Stefanie Ann

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Wed, 15 Jun 2005 02:51:34 GMT

Woohoo im good, i was just trying to balance my check book and couldnt for the life of me figure out why it wasnt right so i went back and re did the whole thing only to find out my DAD messed up! Wow for te first time IIIIII was right on something how awesome! For someone who NEVER balanced a check book i just did and was exact to the penny and my dad had me off by like 7 bucks. Woot now im up to date and everything is right and i am the master of the check book! haha Anyway i was just lookin at reciepts from grocery shopping and damn that little Win-Dick-Me savers card thing really does save you money i ujust didnt realize how much, i saved so far $1,238.12 god damn!!! I got that much more in my pocket then i realized, hehe silly little mother things that bring joy hahaha. Anyhow things are going pretty good, finances are good health is eh but good at the same time and especially Zoey is good. Zach and i are good as well, i think this living in seperate houses is doing us a world of good bc we are actually happy seeing each other, granted life is extreamly different without him around, i miss him a ton more so the time we do get together is great, no yelling no smug looks nothing its just pure enjoyment. On a different not work is going pretty good, i have quite a few clients and just added another one to my list today. Shes a basic pedicure but with an acrylic toe nail on one toe, i swear its the weirdest thing, her toe nail is split in half by her skin and she likes acrylic on it soooo you asked for it and you shall recieve, i put that shit on there and it was the BEST mother fuckin acrylic job on a deformed toe i have ever done then i did her pedicure and did the BEST french i have ever done. As she was leaving...she put her CLOSED TOE SHOES ON!!!!! Guarenteed ever toe is messed up and she will be back tomorrow..stupid bitch i could kill her! hahaha You should have seen our faces when we saw her put them on it was a look of horror then a burst of laughing when she walked out, oh man.

Anywho i got my labret pierced for those of you who didnt know, looks sexy i love it...other then the pain when im sleeping and of the crust that likes to build up on it every so often. *sigh* Ok well my fingers are pretty tired of typing so im going to go now have good night and pleasent dreams!

<3 Stefanie

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Thu, 02 Jun 2005 04:29:18 GMT

So its official. He gets her 2 days a week then the following weekend. Im a total wreck and i want a shovel to dig a whole to lay and hide away in for as long as possible.

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Sat, 21 May 2005 23:18:29 GMT

Ok im going insane. Im sitting in my parents room on the internet and out of the corner of my eye i see something very small on the patio, i look over and out the window and it was a tiny black and white kitten. I get up from here and go to the double doors not even 3 seconds away from right here and go out quietly and it was GONE! Like totally gone i looked down both sides of the house under the wood in the patio everywhere and not a trace was found...maybe it was my imagination? I dunno. I am sick however and on meds so i wouldnt doubt i was seeing things. Uh weird. Any how yea i am mad sick, i couldnt go to work and ugh i just feel like dieing. I miss my daughter, havent seen her in a week bc shes on vacation with my mom in Orlando, she comes back tomorrow woohoo!!

Yea so earlier i got my first credit card bill in and went to pay it online and noticed i put in the wrong social security number when i sent away for it. When i went online to pay it and put in my real one it wouldnt work so i remembered the wrong one and presto got it to work then had to call to tell them my retard ass move and they fixed it no problem..im a total jackass sometimes, i cant help it =\

Lets see what else is new and interesting...i really dont think anything so rather then blabbing on about usless shit im gonna go and find something to do that requires little to no effort. Peace out dudes!

Stefanie

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Mon, 04 Apr 2005 03:26:25 GMT

Wow ok im sitting here blubbering like a baby, i just saw this movie "Mom at 16" on Lifetime, and jesus christ i dont think i have cryed like this in a long time. If any of you havent seen it or whatever you really should look for it, its a good movie. But alls i have to say is please have sex safely and that a baby is no joke, im going thru this and its the hardest thing ever, so PLEASE HAVE SAFE SEX! I know most of you dont care and dont wanna hear people preach about having safe sex but you really should unless your ready for this kind of responsibility, the hardest thing in the world. So on that note watch this movie and have a good night.

Stefanie Ann

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Sun, 03 Apr 2005 03:28:51 GMT

Today was amazing, i met a Medium. Ive done her nails for her for some time and talked to her about shit, more or less of her baby and things of that sort and today, im not sure how this came up she said she was a medium. She didnt tell me much about my family thats passed but her mother told me some things about the present. Mind you ie never talked to her mother other then discussing baby names. She told me i had an older brother who im very close with..true, told me hes got quite a few tattoos...true, told me he likes to look at motorcycles...true. I was in shock. She told me things about myself but we arent going to go there bc its not important but it was amazing! She told me about Auras, its light around you which everyone can see if they know how to look for it. I found a site on here to teach you how to do this and different exercises and basically all about it, so im trying it out and i did well on the first few exercises and damn its kool, the harder ones i cant do bc it takes alot of practice and concentration and a while of staring and it seriously hurts your eyes the first few times but you have to keep doing it to get better. Amazingness. Children naturally see peoples aruas bc of there eyes and how sensetive they are, thats why children either like you or dont bc they can see it and sence it, like they know you are no good even if you smile and do all that nice shit bc they can just see your aura. Zoey dosent like one person in spacific im not giving names but she just dosent like this person at all so i can believe in this. Ok now that all you think im nuts ill stop talking.

So yea whats new with me? Still working down in Boca at Nails West, i love it i meet tons of kool mo-fo's and work with alot of them too. Ive gotten pretty damn good at doing acrylics, i still cant do pink and whites tho which sucks bc they bring in the most money but for what i do i make out well. My time on things has decreased which is a good thing, it dosent take me 2 hours to do fills anymore more like 30-40 mins depending on there problems and the person, my pedicures went down in time as well but not down in quality so thats awesome, so just all around im doing better. So thats that.

Lalas wedding is commin upon us, this comming week is going to be quite hectic. Monday we have the dinner rehersal followed by dinner reservations. Tuesday My mom and i are getting our hair colored at 9 am which wont be done till 12. Wednesday nothing really that i know of. Thursday we go for our final fittings and get the dresses. Friday i dont work and we start preparing for Saturdays bachlor party, and then go get the extended family from the air port. Saturday decorate for the bachlor party, then at night have the bachlor party..which will also be the bachlorette party lol, then ...oops i fucked up friday is the partys and getting the family (so didnt wanna type it over hahah) saturday recover from the party then Sunday. Sunday is the wedding!!! Get done up hair and makeup and nails primped then 5pm "Here comes the bride!" and party into te night and recover monday! God damn! Im excited and now i must go to sleep bc tomorrow im going to a little bbq at my receptionests house with the baby and zach and lindsay and a few other people, so yea i got to go, Goodnight to all and to all a goodnight!

Love Stefanie <3

freaky_lil_stef@yahoo.com — Mon, 28 Feb 2005 12:34:00 GMT

ok so my daughter waves! Every day when i see her i wave to her and try to get her to wave back and yesterday she did!!! I cant believe it she like understood me it was awesome! So yea now im going to teach her to clap! Yay! hhahaha im so happy i wanna show everyone! Nothing else is new so theres not much to update..yanno other then Zoey is beautiful but we know that RIGHT!?!?! HAHAH ok bye.